My Views On Transgender Folks.

I used to be very tomboyish and I grew up with all brothers and boy cousins in the country. I was surrounded by a heavy amount of male influencing lol so I did guyish things and activities alot of the time.
I like stereotypical male activities like video games, camping, BBQing, sports.
I use to think, feel and and say that I was a guy in a girls body lol. Because I was young and confused and thought that if I liked all those things and had thoughts matching them that that meant I was male but that wasn’t the case it was just because that was my environment it was all I ever knew and all I had the option to do so I adopted it and became it.
I felt I had a male mind/mentality but female emotions and body lol.
I went through a very long and intense tomboy phases but eventually the older I got and the more independent I got and the further I got away from my roots, the more feminine I became again and the more in touch with myself I became and well rounded energy wise.
Now that doesn’t mean I’m not still in touch with that masculine energy /side of me it just means that I’m much more balanced, and in control with both.
Now I can allow that energy to exist in me whilst still being a woman, and not have it be confusing or overwhelming, because I am independent from previous influencing and practice self love and expression.
So I know what it feels like to feel one way and then feel another, to feel male and female, I know that it is possible but I never felt drastically or deeply enough to change anything about my natural self, permanently.
Perhaps when some becomes out of touch or conditioned away from one of those leading energies due to what have you, like I had been, they might lose themselves to the other more predominant one, and something I also know that may relate to this is that when people feel lost or fear they sometimes panic and latch on to whatever it is they do know and feel at the time, which can be misleading or take them to some pretty far out places.
I think maybe when we start experiencing “trans” thoughts, contrasting thoughts to what we are generically supposed to be thinking and feeling according to society, we become very confused, defensive, and some may adopt our confusions or delusions as actual identities for ourselves as a means to make sense of it and feel emotionally/mentally stable.
Which is why we need to be looking at it from the perspective of fixing things mentally not physically because a physical change will not change what’s going on inside.
Maybe some people feel that it has to just be just one way and one energy, they don’t get that we have the option to embrace both while get still maintaining one single physical sexual identity. And that’s because they’ve been conditioned/taught to believe that the physical is what matters most and is what defines us, whilst simultaneously we’ve been conditioned/taught to live in a completely polarized and dualistic world.
And so society has almost set us up for these spiritual vs physical, failures and we don’t even realize it.
We get trapped in thinking things have to be physical and have to be polarized, while experiencing dual, unpolarized feelings that contrast it.
Someone will think if I don’t feel like a man then I must not be a man and I must therefore I must change my physicality to match these feeling, when alot of the times they are not even satisfied afterwards and are more upset then before.
What we really need is to just embrace and explore (and be allowed by others to embrace and explore) the spirituality, mentality, and emotions of the other side instead while still keeping our earth/god given bodies.
We are bred into a culture that wants to have it all, without evening knowing it, subconsciously we have been conditioned to yearn for and be attracted to both.
Different levels of effectiveness for different people. Some more susceptible then others, and that makes nobody weaker or stronger by know means, just unconscious of themselves and strength.
I’m very feminine and I’m very masculine but I wouldn’t change a single thing about my beautiful baby shoot or
my body.
I’m all for exploring the opposite sides spiritually, mentally, and emotionally, from the cozy confines of my unchanged body and I just don’t think it’s right to ask/want more than that.
I think it’s going to far and I personally would feel physically greedy and sinful for wanting that, like I was trying to have my cake and eat it you but with genders lol.
This was the life and journey I was given and I’m gonna respect that no matter how tough or confusing it is along the way, I am going to stick with myself & I’m not gonna fuck with mother nature.
The satanic God the Baphomet believed in living PHYSICALLY and I put emphasis on the physically as a male and female entity… now it is one thing to embrace both energies spiritually (which is what I’m saying to do) but is another entirely different thing to embrace and embody them both physically, and that i think is where you cross the line and when you’re fucking with nature and kinda insulting the universe/ our creator.
So again the goal is to master both energies emotionally, spiritually and mentally but love and accept the body you are gifted and given. because tahat respecting the laws and power of creation.
The baphomet/satan thrives off the energy cultivated when committing one of the seven deadly sins. Over indulgence is one of the most prevalent and active in today’s culture and Society, in my opinion. There is such a lack of modesty and such a need and desire to experience it all and have it all as i mentioned before.
But again I would think it to be both overindulgent and insulting to my Creator who gifted me this physical vessel & journey to experience.
You don’t fuck with the natural, and the physical yo that is what’s there to hold you down, to keep you centered, grounded, and connected to source. That’s why I think many of these people struggling with trans issues are so depressed, they’re making changes in the wrong places.
The other stuff like the spiritual, mental, emotional, that is there for you to explore and change and create yourself with, that is where your playground for experiencing and growth lies, and it’s a shame people miss out on because they’re stuck in a physical, dual mindset.
And it’s not their fault. Men are taught to disconnect from emotions. Women are taught to disconnect from their minds. Both are taught to disconnect from their spirit, and so we live in a physical, material, dualistic world. We cling to those concepts, we let them physically shape and define us, and that is wrong.
To me those much of those thoughts are like saying I’m unsatisfied with this masterpiece you created, it feels off, it’s not enough, and I want to change it.
Leave the master piece that is you alone, but allow yourself to live in and embrace all of the beautiful colours and aspects that came together to create you.
That is my spiritual, physical, personal rant. Not intended to offend anyone , just sharing my personal, and completely non-violent views lol.
Lots of love ❤

Kesha’s New Music

Okay I just gotta say, mad motherfucken respect for Kesha.
After her rape lawsuit failed in court against her producer and she disappeared from the world, I thought that was the end of her.
Not that I was gonna miss her music at all because to me it was everything wrong with the world and youth at the time lol but I did feel for her pain and injustices legally speaking.
I know she signed a binding contract but rape/sexual harassment is one of those things I think should be fair to break a fucken contract over, no?
Isn’t the legal system supposed to honor human justice over all els?
ANYWAYS tho, she is back in the entertainment scene and it’s obvious that she has done alot of growing and healing and changing and I think she has finally found herself/voice in the world.
She’s actually trying to make a difference and send a good message to the world and personally she has already made a big difference when it comes to my perspective of her.
Her new music is like nothing that she’s created before or that I even hear anymore in mainstream and something the world needs right now.
It was both a breath of fresh air, and a tear jerker, filled with emotion, spirituality, and depth.
THAT is what music is suppose to do and be!!! AHH 
It should be that meaningful and deep. It should have a story, a message, that isn’t just mindless propaganda and bullshit.
You can tell she is doing her own thing now and truly embracing herself and because of it I am able to actually recognize and enjoy her amazing voice (that I didn’t even know she had) and undeniable creative talent.
She gives me hope for the entertainment industry and I’ve not felt that in a while lol.
Also, way to show the world and especially women that something like rape or sexual assault (even when the entire world knows about it) does not have to change or define you for the rest of your life. It does not have to be the thing that breaks you, and if you work hard enough and love yourself enough, it can be the thing that instead, makes you.
You CAN come back from something like that and not only that but use what happened to you as creative inspiration and fuel for your future success.
Just fucken brilliant and beautiful, I’m in love with it all. 
Kudos to you, you goddess of music, love, praying, and rainbows!

Joint/Couple Social Media Accounts…Yikes!

When I get an invite to follow couples account on social media my reaction is to both laugh, gag, and cry a little for them lol.
I have now seen 4 in the past week or so.. is this the new trend or something?

If so then it belongs back in Highschool, and please don’t ask me to participate.

Unless you are traveling the whole world together posting beautiful pictures of your scenic adventures, then I as well as most are completely uninterested in the uninteresting happenings of your relationship.

To be honest I would have been the kinda person to do something overzealous like that back in my younger days but thankfully I have matured and am not there anymore.
Over the years I have realized and become a firm believer that, the more things you post about your relationship, the more insecure you are about it.
The more you have the need to show the world how happy you are, the more it just seems like you are trying to convince yourself of how happy you are.
And for that, nobody cares.
Shared social media accounts are the modern day coupledom sin akin to wearing matching outfits on the street (yikes!).

So if you want to merge into a single cyberblob with your partner that is fine, but I will not follow or encourage you or anyone els in that.

You might want to bear in mind just how much your online presence as individual matters if you are a working professional of any sort or care about maintaining an image of individualism or independence in general.
At least keep your individual account too.

Now I am not saying that this is unarguably your relationship dynamic if you fall in this boat, I am just saying that this is how it comes across to me personally and also this is what I have come to learn through my own dealings and through the dealing of others.
To those of us who are not in your relationship, it gets old fast (if not instantaneously) and acts as a daily reminder of how co-dependent and self-obsessed/narcissistic you both are.

And it also looks like you spend more time documenting the moments of your relationship to boast/brag about more than you spend time actually enjoying the true beauty and intimacy of them, which saddens me.

I just don’t see a good point to it really.
I am sure they think they are “inspiring us” but it’s more annoying than anything.
Ultimately, you are not a romantic comedy film that everyone wants to watch over and over again and base their life off.
You are more like the annoying love song that keeps playing on repeat, no matter where you go, that just makes your ears bleed after a while.A couple cute pics here and there is totally golden and good vibes and all that anyone really wants or needs.
I’m not saying boycott the sharing or P.D.A just don’t dedicate an entire social media account to it because I look at these things and it honestly makes me more sad for you more than it makes me happy for you, which I believe defeats its purpose, no?

Ironically these are usually the same people that will completely disappear or fall off the face of the earth on their friends when they are in a relationship with someone lol.
(But don’t worry you can still follow their cyberblob on social media LOL)
So it’s you really think all your friends wanna follow the gag-worthy relationship that has now turned you into an isolated, dependent, no-show.
I don’t think so…


Negative News

A major new study out of Harvard University has revealed the true extent of the mainstream media’s bias against Donald Trump. Academics analyzed coverage from Trump’s first 100 days in office across 10 major TV and print outlets.
They found that the tone of some outlets was negative in as many as 98% of reports, significantly more hostile than the first 100 days of the three previous administrations:

Four Brothers

So as I mentioned yesterday, I expanded my Rat family 🙂

Brought the new brothers home last night!
I think I’ll keep it at four though.
I got more because Rats do best, live longer, and are happier in social settings.
Also because they are just the best pets ever and I wanted more to care for & enjoy.
18600789_1797145277281742_80607123_nI ended up giving them different names then the ones I was leaning towards.
So here’s Jasper (the beige hooded fancy rat)

And Monty (the black hooded fancy rat).

I will continue to update on how my new guys get along and grow together!

The Rat Pad

Just upgraded the ratties pad!
Adding two more additions to the family today or tomorrow 🙂

They will be two more males, A black hooded & a beige hooded who apparently has missing toe.
I’m gonna name them Morty & Breadcrumb. ❤
Suuuper excited.

My current babies, Sageus (gray fancy) and Franks (hairless) are doing splendidly.
I love them so much. Their favorite foods so far are banana chips, chicken, and sweet potato chews.

I made them a homemade hammock and they just started using it the other day. Hooray!
Seriously, folks, rats make the best pets!!

Don’t Fight Gunfire With Gunfire

All these feminist groups, and black lives matters, and trans lives matters, etc etc social justice warriors groups, should all just come together as one big hateful family named “White Males Don’t Matter” you know since there all running with that same angle, it saves some time lol.

You get nowhere fighting gunfire with gunfire or hatred with hatred.
Blaming solves nothing.
Belittling solves nothing.
Bashing solves nothing.
& Bitching solves nothing.
Be the chance you want to see.
It has to start with you.
Why repeat our mistakes.
Why look for retribution & regression instead of forgiveness and growth?
Don’t you see it’s what they want.
To divide and conquer us.
And we’re letting it happen instead of tapping into understanding or compassion.

Drop the misandry already, it’s all about equalism. ✌🏻

Freedom Of Speech

Freedom of speech barely exists anymore in today’s society.
Between the censorship of the internet and social media outlets, and the heavily pushed PC movement and agenda, I do not feel like I have the right to free speech anymore.
Speaking freely costs a lot these days.
It can cost you your family, your friends, even your own life if you are influential & effective enough.
I am not a racist, sexist, or homophobic person and my views are not hurtful or hateful.
Yet I can’t express my political opinions without being ridiculed, rejected or attacked by most of the people around me.
Hell, I can’t even celebrate my own chosen holidays without fear or reservation in doing so.
I can’t wish people a Merry Christmas without being ostracized for it,  when it is very obviously and undoubtedly good intentioned & coming from a place of love & kindness.
Why aren’t we sharing our cultures and learning to embrace and accept one another rather than conditioning ourselves to be offended by every little thing that doesn’t fit it with the ‘ status quo’ or rather the political quo?
What the fuck kinda free speech is that?!
Nothing is free anymore, and free speech especially comes with a heavy cost.
I first hand have had to pay its price.
But I’d rather go down fighting than live a freedomless, expressionless life.
At least I’d leave this world with more passion and plight then one could ask for.

Trump Facts

If you think that Donald Trump is racist, sexist or homophobic human being then please read this & you might think or feel a little better.

To the people who think Trump is a racist….

Would a racist man fight to include & allow Jewish people and Black people onto the upper class golf courses in the 1990s?
He defended Mar-a-Lago’s open door policy for people of all races in the 1990s.

Or would he donated $25,000 to a mostly black women’s basketball league after the founder was killed in the 9/11 attack

Trump also worked with the Rainbow-PUSH coalition to bring blacks and minorities into corporate America.

To the people who think Trump is sexist….

Would a sexist man employ more women than men at the upper echelons of his real estate empire, and in many cases pay them more?

Would he make Barbara Res (33 years old) the first woman to ever be put in charge of supervising the construction of a skyscraper, in 1980.

Trump helped Jennifer Hudson after her family members were killed…

He also dated black supermodel Kara Young in the early 2000’s. His spokesperson is Katrina Pierson, a black woman. His daughter (Ivanka) and son-in-law (Jared Kushner) are Jewish AND his wife is a (legal) immigrant.

To the people who think Trump is homophobic….

In 2000, he declared that he supported gay anti-discrimination laws and the repeal of “don’t ask, don’t tell. He also advocated for “a very strong domestic-partnership law that guarantees gay people the same legal protections and rights as married people.
His book wistfully described his dream of an America “unencumbered by racism, discrimination against women, or discrimination against people based on sexual orientation.”
The details of Trump’s gay rights views are even more impressive. Trump didn’t just want states to pass their own anti-discrimination laws: He supported amending the federal Civil Rights Act of 1964 to ban sexual orientation discrimination.

He also changed the Miss Universe rules to allow transgender contestants like Jenna Talackova to compete.

And at a rally in Colorado, Mr. Trump proudly held up a rainbow flag with the words “LGBT for Trump” written on it to a cheering crowd of thousands. It was a historic moment for gay equality as no other Republican Presidential nominee in history has embraced the LGBT community in such a loud and proud way.

Lastly, he was not only invited the first openly gay man to speak at the Republican National Convention (on the main stage during primetime, no less) but addressed gay voters directly during his RNC nomination acceptance AND was first invited to CPAC by a gay conservatives group in 2011. – See more at:

Just sayin ya’ll…