My Views On Transgender Folks.

I used to be very tomboyish and I grew up with all brothers and boy cousins in the country. I was surrounded by a heavy amount of male influencing lol so I did guyish things and activities alot of the time.
I like stereotypical male activities like video games, camping, BBQing, sports.
I use to think, feel and and say that I was a guy in a girls body lol. Because I was young and confused and thought that if I liked all those things and had thoughts matching them that that meant I was male but that wasn’t the case it was just because that was my environment it was all I ever knew and all I had the option to do so I adopted it and became it.
I felt I had a male mind/mentality but female emotions and body lol.
I went through a very long and intense tomboy phases but eventually the older I got and the more independent I got and the further I got away from my roots, the more feminine I became again and the more in touch with myself I became and well rounded energy wise.
Now that doesn’t mean I’m not still in touch with that masculine energy /side of me it just means that I’m much more balanced, and in control with both.
Now I can allow that energy to exist in me whilst still being a woman, and not have it be confusing or overwhelming, because I am independent from previous influencing and practice self love and expression.
So I know what it feels like to feel one way and then feel another, to feel male and female, I know that it is possible but I never felt drastically or deeply enough to change anything about my natural self, permanently.
Perhaps when some becomes out of touch or conditioned away from one of those leading energies due to what have you, like I had been, they might lose themselves to the other more predominant one, and something I also know that may relate to this is that when people feel lost or fear they sometimes panic and latch on to whatever it is they do know and feel at the time, which can be misleading or take them to some pretty far out places.
I think maybe when we start experiencing “trans” thoughts, contrasting thoughts to what we are generically supposed to be thinking and feeling according to society, we become very confused, defensive, and some may adopt our confusions or delusions as actual identities for ourselves as a means to make sense of it and feel emotionally/mentally stable.
Which is why we need to be looking at it from the perspective of fixing things mentally not physically because a physical change will not change what’s going on inside.
Maybe some people feel that it has to just be just one way and one energy, they don’t get that we have the option to embrace both while get still maintaining one single physical sexual identity. And that’s because they’ve been conditioned/taught to believe that the physical is what matters most and is what defines us, whilst simultaneously we’ve been conditioned/taught to live in a completely polarized and dualistic world.
And so society has almost set us up for these spiritual vs physical, failures and we don’t even realize it.
We get trapped in thinking things have to be physical and have to be polarized, while experiencing dual, unpolarized feelings that contrast it.
Someone will think if I don’t feel like a man then I must not be a man and I must therefore I must change my physicality to match these feeling, when alot of the times they are not even satisfied afterwards and are more upset then before.
What we really need is to just embrace and explore (and be allowed by others to embrace and explore) the spirituality, mentality, and emotions of the other side instead while still keeping our earth/god given bodies.
We are bred into a culture that wants to have it all, without evening knowing it, subconsciously we have been conditioned to yearn for and be attracted to both.
Different levels of effectiveness for different people. Some more susceptible then others, and that makes nobody weaker or stronger by know means, just unconscious of themselves and strength.
I’m very feminine and I’m very masculine but I wouldn’t change a single thing about my beautiful baby shoot or
my body.
I’m all for exploring the opposite sides spiritually, mentally, and emotionally, from the cozy confines of my unchanged body and I just don’t think it’s right to ask/want more than that.
I think it’s going to far and I personally would feel physically greedy and sinful for wanting that, like I was trying to have my cake and eat it you but with genders lol.
This was the life and journey I was given and I’m gonna respect that no matter how tough or confusing it is along the way, I am going to stick with myself & I’m not gonna fuck with mother nature.
The satanic God the Baphomet believed in living PHYSICALLY and I put emphasis on the physically as a male and female entity… now it is one thing to embrace both energies spiritually (which is what I’m saying to do) but is another entirely different thing to embrace and embody them both physically, and that i think is where you cross the line and when you’re fucking with nature and kinda insulting the universe/ our creator.
So again the goal is to master both energies emotionally, spiritually and mentally but love and accept the body you are gifted and given. because tahat respecting the laws and power of creation.
The baphomet/satan thrives off the energy cultivated when committing one of the seven deadly sins. Over indulgence is one of the most prevalent and active in today’s culture and Society, in my opinion. There is such a lack of modesty and such a need and desire to experience it all and have it all as i mentioned before.
But again I would think it to be both overindulgent and insulting to my Creator who gifted me this physical vessel & journey to experience.
You don’t fuck with the natural, and the physical yo that is what’s there to hold you down, to keep you centered, grounded, and connected to source. That’s why I think many of these people struggling with trans issues are so depressed, they’re making changes in the wrong places.
The other stuff like the spiritual, mental, emotional, that is there for you to explore and change and create yourself with, that is where your playground for experiencing and growth lies, and it’s a shame people miss out on because they’re stuck in a physical, dual mindset.
And it’s not their fault. Men are taught to disconnect from emotions. Women are taught to disconnect from their minds. Both are taught to disconnect from their spirit, and so we live in a physical, material, dualistic world. We cling to those concepts, we let them physically shape and define us, and that is wrong.
To me those much of those thoughts are like saying I’m unsatisfied with this masterpiece you created, it feels off, it’s not enough, and I want to change it.
Leave the master piece that is you alone, but allow yourself to live in and embrace all of the beautiful colours and aspects that came together to create you.
That is my spiritual, physical, personal rant. Not intended to offend anyone , just sharing my personal, and completely non-violent views lol.
Lots of love ❤

Kesha’s New Music

Okay I just gotta say, mad motherfucken respect for Kesha.
After her rape lawsuit failed in court against her producer and she disappeared from the world, I thought that was the end of her.
Not that I was gonna miss her music at all because to me it was everything wrong with the world and youth at the time lol but I did feel for her pain and injustices legally speaking.
I know she signed a binding contract but rape/sexual harassment is one of those things I think should be fair to break a fucken contract over, no?
Isn’t the legal system supposed to honor human justice over all els?
ANYWAYS tho, she is back in the entertainment scene and it’s obvious that she has done alot of growing and healing and changing and I think she has finally found herself/voice in the world.
She’s actually trying to make a difference and send a good message to the world and personally she has already made a big difference when it comes to my perspective of her.
Her new music is like nothing that she’s created before or that I even hear anymore in mainstream and something the world needs right now.
It was both a breath of fresh air, and a tear jerker, filled with emotion, spirituality, and depth.
THAT is what music is suppose to do and be!!! AHH 
It should be that meaningful and deep. It should have a story, a message, that isn’t just mindless propaganda and bullshit.
You can tell she is doing her own thing now and truly embracing herself and because of it I am able to actually recognize and enjoy her amazing voice (that I didn’t even know she had) and undeniable creative talent.
She gives me hope for the entertainment industry and I’ve not felt that in a while lol.
Also, way to show the world and especially women that something like rape or sexual assault (even when the entire world knows about it) does not have to change or define you for the rest of your life. It does not have to be the thing that breaks you, and if you work hard enough and love yourself enough, it can be the thing that instead, makes you.
You CAN come back from something like that and not only that but use what happened to you as creative inspiration and fuel for your future success.
Just fucken brilliant and beautiful, I’m in love with it all. 
Kudos to you, you goddess of music, love, praying, and rainbows!

Joint/Couple Social Media Accounts…Yikes!

When I get an invite to follow couples account on social media my reaction is to both laugh, gag, and cry a little for them lol.
I have now seen 4 in the past week or so.. is this the new trend or something?

If so then it belongs back in Highschool, and please don’t ask me to participate.

Unless you are traveling the whole world together posting beautiful pictures of your scenic adventures, then I as well as most are completely uninterested in the uninteresting happenings of your relationship.

To be honest I would have been the kinda person to do something overzealous like that back in my younger days but thankfully I have matured and am not there anymore.
Over the years I have realized and become a firm believer that, the more things you post about your relationship, the more insecure you are about it.
The more you have the need to show the world how happy you are, the more it just seems like you are trying to convince yourself of how happy you are.
And for that, nobody cares.
Shared social media accounts are the modern day coupledom sin akin to wearing matching outfits on the street (yikes!).

So if you want to merge into a single cyberblob with your partner that is fine, but I will not follow or encourage you or anyone els in that.

You might want to bear in mind just how much your online presence as individual matters if you are a working professional of any sort or care about maintaining an image of individualism or independence in general.
At least keep your individual account too.

Now I am not saying that this is unarguably your relationship dynamic if you fall in this boat, I am just saying that this is how it comes across to me personally and also this is what I have come to learn through my own dealings and through the dealing of others.
To those of us who are not in your relationship, it gets old fast (if not instantaneously) and acts as a daily reminder of how co-dependent and self-obsessed/narcissistic you both are.

And it also looks like you spend more time documenting the moments of your relationship to boast/brag about more than you spend time actually enjoying the true beauty and intimacy of them, which saddens me.

I just don’t see a good point to it really.
I am sure they think they are “inspiring us” but it’s more annoying than anything.
Ultimately, you are not a romantic comedy film that everyone wants to watch over and over again and base their life off.
You are more like the annoying love song that keeps playing on repeat, no matter where you go, that just makes your ears bleed after a while.A couple cute pics here and there is totally golden and good vibes and all that anyone really wants or needs.
I’m not saying boycott the sharing or P.D.A just don’t dedicate an entire social media account to it because I look at these things and it honestly makes me more sad for you more than it makes me happy for you, which I believe defeats its purpose, no?

Ironically these are usually the same people that will completely disappear or fall off the face of the earth on their friends when they are in a relationship with someone lol.
(But don’t worry you can still follow their cyberblob on social media LOL)
So it’s you really think all your friends wanna follow the gag-worthy relationship that has now turned you into an isolated, dependent, no-show.
I don’t think so…


Live Free Or Die Trying

Every day is a party.
A chance to seize the day.
A clean slate, to change fate.
An opportunity to rejoice and celebrate life,
And the amazing chance that you got to live one!
Why not smile about it, why not dance about it?
Hell, let’s all make sweet romance about it!
This is our time to shinee,
It’s time to fly, it’s time to fall,
To have a blast, & see it all.
Don’t waste the most precious & beautiful gifts you were ever given.
Your life, your time, & your body.
You’ve been given a very special vehicle for your soul to explore in.
You’ve been given the opportunity to be able to exist as more than just energy and soul,
But in a physical sense too.
Don’t waste this experience, this journey, or yourself.
Take nothing for granted, & take care of yourself.
The world is your oyster, and you are the beautiful shining pearl.

Beyond What You Know

Is there a reason for this season of violence and hatred
Seasoning your words and actions with the intent to hurt
With the intent to kill
Don’t grow away from love and acceptance
Don’t grow away from each other
Don’t grow away from yourself
Separateness is just an illusion
An intrusion in all our lives and souls that we mustn’t let define us
For the only thing that matters is recognizing the divine spark of creation, love, and life that runs through us all
Once you remove every protective layer around you and make your skin thin and your heart transparent
Once you demolish the walls that keep the pain in and the people out
Once you drop the need and desire to judge, criticize, and classify one another
You will see in all our naked vulnerability that we are all the same
We are all the same victim
We are all the same hero
We are all the same love just presenting itself in many different beautiful ways and expressions
Nobody is complete, we are all under construction, works in progress, students of life
And everything you are lacking is everything someone else might have to offer you if you allow them to
So why don’t we share instead of take
Why don’t we build instead of break
Because progress is only made through a willingness to learn and understand
Beyond yourself & what you already know

The Life Of An Empath

I always see people on the street and subway and cars next to me and I imagine what their story is, where they might be headed, if they feel loved or maybe they’re in pain… Maybe they have a family, or maybe that have nobody… If I reached out to them to connect would they retreat or engage. Sometimes I’ll forget myself thinking of other people, I get lost in them. And sometimes I feel like if I stare into someone’s eyes I might fall right into their soul… I might feel all their pain or love and I just won’t be able to walk away…


A Single Moment Of Understanding

A single moment of understanding can flood a whole life(time) with meaning.

Why must we fill roles?
Maybe the only role we are supposed to fit (in my opinion at least) is that of a human being.
A human who’s just being, existing, experiencing and nothing more or complex than that.
Maybe that’s the universe’s only expectation for us … and we’ve just created all these other ones ourselves.
Or maybe they were set in place by others to distract us…

See, I personally feel that the universe was built with the energy and expression of creation.
As is everything else within it, and we are all just fragments or portions of that creative energy extending and developing itself further and further into time and space, until there’s nothing left to create and nowhere left to expand to.
Our only desires really should be to continue existing and projecting that creative life energy through ourselves and the universe
To create more physicality, more spirituality, more connectedness, more love, more life, more everything, just to keep creating is key.

Knowing that we cannot fail in this plight is what should give you the courage to take all the chances necessary on your journey of spiritual evolution.
Because there is no failing in this life, there is only learning, and growing, and expanding in consciousness and in love.
And when your busy questioning and doubting and fearing yourself and others then you’re missing out on and depriving yourself of feeling, and experiencing, and creating so much beauty and wonderment.

Stop living in the past or the future and just focus on this moment, and on just being here, now.
Most people are more afraid to live then they are to die, but personally the thought of my one day (very distant) death somewhat excites me.
I look forward to seeing and experiencing what’s after/beyond this life because I have a feeling there’s alot more out there,
And I’m really looking forward to having the opportunity to explore this universe its many other dimensions in as many forms and ways as I can!

Sometimes I even feel limited in experiencing all that I want because I’m in a physical shell, anchored to the earth,  whilst my soul yearns to zoom out and explore the cosmos… But then I remind myself that patience is a virtue and that, that time will come, and in the meantime there is always tons to learn, create, and explore wherever I am present, and as long as I am conscious and embracing.

I Live For It

I live for the moments where I get so passionately caught up in something that for a fleeting second I forget all my earthly bounds & limitations and the unavoidable fact that I am walking around with an expiration date on my life.
All I feel for that brisk yet escaping moment is the utter ecstasy of being alive and limitless…
And I live for it.


Givers & Takers

It’s hard finding balance in this world.
On one side of things, we have people living for themselves, stepping on others to get ahead, purely in it for them and nobody else and it’s all take, take, take.
On the other side, we have people living for everyone else, always putting others ahead of themselves, as it’s all give, give, give.
Neither sides seem truly fulfilling because, on one hand, your abusing others and on the other, you’re abusing yourself.
And in both cases, you miss out, on feeling either what it’s like to give or what it’s like to receive.
You’ll never be fully present or whole this way because one spends too much time in the head, and the other spends too much time in the heart.
And the secret to a happy and satisfying life is finding the middle ground.
Be the giver & a receiver, the student & the teacher.
The head & the heart must operate as an equal team.
The takers are the makers of our world,
And the givers are the livers of our world,
But truly there’s just so much to gain in being both.
So find your balance.
Consciousness is key.
It’s a battlefield of energies out there exchanging & interchanging, within and without us.
It’s hard not to get caught up in them.
Just do your best to love others and to also love yourself.
Live with passion & compassion.
It’ll be an endless stream of giving & creating collectively if we master this.
With infinite amounts of boundless love & creative energy a flowin.
Sound lovely don’t it?
This is how we do it.
This is how we evolve as a race and soar to new levels of consciousness and existence.

Confidence In Recklessness

Confidence in recklessness
Is bound to create trouble 
And I have more than most should
So where does that put me exactly?
Well, I’m not entirely sure…
But it’s somewhere different every time 
I’m usually somewhere reeling between 
He and she 
Us and they 
Here and there 
Near and far
Somewhere with new people to know
New problems to conquer
And new passions to bleed forth 
Somewhere where boredom’s too shy 
To show it’s simple face 
Where speed has no time 
To slow down and catch rays 
And where lust does not wait up 
For common sense to arrive home 
After a night of bad decisions has taken place